Although I had always had some vague sense of being “different” from my peers, I never really became aware of the enormity of that difference until my teenage years—mostly from feedback that I received from peers, teachers, parents, and youth leaders at church. By the time I was 16, the difference had become so pronounced that I found myself entirely isolated from others. Within a few months, I became a full-blown basket case.
Apparently I had been having trouble with the other boys and girls at school. Some sort of incident occurred in the lunchroom, and I ended up seeing the school psychologist. I vaguely remember doing some tests (involving shiny red and white plastic blocks), but very little else.
Here are some of the main points brought out in the report:
Background
- “He has always had difficulty with peers and has always been teased and abused [by them]”
- “He is not a fighter…He cannot bring himself to defend himself”
- “[He has a] tendency to cry and go to [his mother] or another adult…when teased”
- “His social maturity level is far below that of average fourth graders…His whole manner and speech set him apart as ‘babyish’ ”
- “He is unaware of how inappropriate his remarks and his interests seem to others”
- “Very good academic progress all the way through the grades…[with] good achievement and work habits”
- “Improvement…needed in both fine and gross motor skills”
- “Noticeably uncoordinated, even ascending stairs like a much younger child, using two feet for each step”
- “Very naïve, transparent, immature”
- “He is so sensitive and so vulnerable that he is an inevitable scapegoat”
- “Social level like that of a first-grade child”
- “Bright, alert, and interested in learning”
- “Quite competitive, constantly striving to do better than other children his age”
- “Insecurity and chronic anxiety-state”
- “He feels that none of his peers like him”
- “Said…that ‘Perhaps the other children would like me better if I was smarter’…Said that some of his classmates think he’s ‘kind of stupid’”
- “Super-conscientious [and] dependent”
- “Able to please and appeal to adults by his ‘good’ (conforming) behavior”
- “Not observant enough of the behavior and interests of normal nine-year-olds to adapt his conversation and manner to their standards”
- “[Engages in] pious talk [that] is tolerated only from adults among children of his own age”
- “A ‘family-oriented’ child, happy with and fond of all family members”
- “Misses his father, and wishes that his grandparents and his aunt lived closer to him”
- “A lively, active mind and a genuine eagerness to learn”
- “He knows that he is different, but his attempts to please…lead to adult indulgence but not to acceptance by his age-mates”
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